April 30, 2012
Prayer for a Friend
I have been praying for a special friend of mine lately. I know she is "lost" right now and feeling alone. I pray she knows I am here for her.
Prayers for a Friend
April 27, 2012
It Won't Kill Them
Ever go somewhere and see a child that you know could honestly use a good spanking? I mean, one of those, go outside and cut down a switch from the tree spanking?
I am speaking outside of the PC lines at this point, but it is my belief that children would treat parents and other adults with a lot more respect if they were first of all taught to and second of all reprimanded when they didn't. I grew up saying yes ma'am and no sir. I knew that if I spoke inappropriately I was gonna get the belt. And I did! But guess what, I'm still here, and I know how to treat my elders.
With that on my mind today, I decided to look at what the Bible said about it and found this...
I am speaking outside of the PC lines at this point, but it is my belief that children would treat parents and other adults with a lot more respect if they were first of all taught to and second of all reprimanded when they didn't. I grew up saying yes ma'am and no sir. I knew that if I spoke inappropriately I was gonna get the belt. And I did! But guess what, I'm still here, and I know how to treat my elders.
With that on my mind today, I decided to look at what the Bible said about it and found this...
Proverbs 23:13-14
The Message (MSG)
13-14 Don't be afraid to correct your young ones;
a spanking won't kill them.
A good spanking, in fact, might save them
from something worse than death.
a spanking won't kill them.
A good spanking, in fact, might save them
from something worse than death.
Think about a lesson you learned as a child. Did it come with a spanking? I betcha it either did or the threat of one! I read the verses and love that second verse. A good spanking could very well save your child from something worse than death! I see children yelling at their parents, especially boys yelling at their mothers and it really bothers me. These children could (I'm not saying they will!) end up in some serious trouble later in life. I see these violent tendencies, and I wonder what kind of teenagers and men these little hollering kids will be. It makes me sad, but it also makes me angry and frustrated that these parents allow their children to behave and become this way.
That all being said. I look to the Bible as my source for how to be a parent and how to be a parent that is acceptable to Christ. If the Bible says a spanking won't kill, I suppose I should have to keep that in mind should my children ever need that. In the meantime, I will enjoy the time I have with my children and pray for those mothers who continue to struggle with discipline.
April 26, 2012
Solace in the stillness
I am so tired today. Was tired last night and tried to sleep but I just couldn't sleep very well. Lots of things going on in my head can't help that, but what can you do.
I thought about how I am so physically tired and realized I am probably as spiritually tired as well. I need to continually rest up spiritually so that I can be the Christian Christ wants me to be and witness to others who need His Word/guidance.
Spiritual exhaustion means your tired beyond your body. It is a sign that we have become separated from ourselves somewhere along the way and need to reconnect. No matter how tired I am, I have to be that good example (not perfect but good). But how do we refresh when we feel like we are empty?
A word that isn't heard or used often by mothers is stillness, that beautiful word! I picture a relaxed body, peaceful mind and absolute silence. Stillness tends to get lost in the busy world we live in today. But it can be found in the Word if you take the time to look for it.
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Jesus knew how important rest is, we can read that in the Bible. He understood how important rest is to our physical and mental health.
If it is okay for our Father to be tired and rest, then it is acceptable for us as well. Jesus wants us to actually rest in a special way, spiritually.
Challenges and problems in life can drain us physically, mentally and spiritually, leaving us exhausted and frustrated. Jesus understands this and wants us to come to Him for rest. There is no problem too big for Him. No matter how tired I am or you are, Jesus will give us the rest that refreshes us and help us to be ready to face whatever challenges we are going to face on a day to day basis.
I thought about how I am so physically tired and realized I am probably as spiritually tired as well. I need to continually rest up spiritually so that I can be the Christian Christ wants me to be and witness to others who need His Word/guidance.
A word that isn't heard or used often by mothers is stillness, that beautiful word! I picture a relaxed body, peaceful mind and absolute silence. Stillness tends to get lost in the busy world we live in today. But it can be found in the Word if you take the time to look for it.
Matthew 11:28-30
New International Version (NIV)
Jesus knew how important rest is, we can read that in the Bible. He understood how important rest is to our physical and mental health.
If it is okay for our Father to be tired and rest, then it is acceptable for us as well. Jesus wants us to actually rest in a special way, spiritually.
Challenges and problems in life can drain us physically, mentally and spiritually, leaving us exhausted and frustrated. Jesus understands this and wants us to come to Him for rest. There is no problem too big for Him. No matter how tired I am or you are, Jesus will give us the rest that refreshes us and help us to be ready to face whatever challenges we are going to face on a day to day basis.
April 25, 2012
Educating Society
Philippians 2:4
King James Version (KJV)
4Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others.
Look around your house. Is there something you have in your house that others do not? Is there something you have to do to your house that others don't? Do others understand those differences? Let's be more specific..
Do you have a nebulizer in your house? Do you have oxygen masks? Do you have special railings? Or are there foods that are not allowed in your house?
We have a friend with an asthmatic child that keeps a nebulizer in her living room. I have another friend with railings to help him get around because he struggles with balance issues. My home has food restrictions because of Owen's allergies.
But not every house has differences and those who live in them don't always understand restrictions and the need to keep medical equipment close by. The Bible tells us not to look at our own houses but those of others to help educate. I can look at my house all I want; I know every nook and cranny and every need within my house, but I don't know what someone else might need until I open my eyes and see what is in their home.
And I shouldn't expect others to just understand my restrictions without instructions prior to! I am learning this more and more as we deal with Owen's food allergies. There are people out there that just don't understand, and while I struggle with why they don't understand, I was forgetting to look at their house. I find that when I call on the Lord for understanding, He always leads me to the best place. Today, He led me to Phillipians, and He is so right!
I need to stop looking at myself (or in this situation Owen) and look at others. The idea of a small child having something permanent that could end their live is so very hard to fathom! Knowing it myself, doesn't make it easier to understand. But looking at others, I can see where it would be so hard to not really "get it." They don't live in my shoes and see what it could do, but it's not ignorance as much as it is lack of knowledge.
Yesterday, Owen went somewhere new. He didn't know the people but was excited to go. Without a thought, we let him go and made sure to inform them of his food restrictions and what would happen should he be exposed to his allergen: Peanuts. Well, we can't control everything. We couldn't control the fact that the adult in charge couldn't handle the situation, nor could we control that another child ate peanut butter and decided (smelling strongly of peanut butter) to rub his hands all through Owen's hair. Praise the Lord for His hands of safety that enveloped my sweet little boy last night and today, I Praise God for the opportunity to teach someone else. Rather than being angry at the situation (trust me I went through that at one point), I decided to put my best foot forward and make it a teachable moment to share with that location the severity of the food restrictions even when there isn't an actual attack.
My son didn't end up in the hospital, nor did he end up with hives or anything for that matter, but his heart was broken and his spirit was torn. It is important to understand the struggle that comes after something happens. The struggle with helping my child to understand that people do care. It's not that they don't care if he lives or dies. It's just a lack of understanding that he could live or die. I looked into my Owen's little house and saw fear. So today, I educating others on the aftermath of a situation that could lead to an allergic reaction and I encourage you to try to understand what others might be dealing with. Look in their houses and stand a moment in their shoes. It may just change your perspective.
Look around your house. Is there something you have in your house that others do not? Is there something you have to do to your house that others don't? Do others understand those differences? Let's be more specific..
Do you have a nebulizer in your house? Do you have oxygen masks? Do you have special railings? Or are there foods that are not allowed in your house?
We have a friend with an asthmatic child that keeps a nebulizer in her living room. I have another friend with railings to help him get around because he struggles with balance issues. My home has food restrictions because of Owen's allergies.
But not every house has differences and those who live in them don't always understand restrictions and the need to keep medical equipment close by. The Bible tells us not to look at our own houses but those of others to help educate. I can look at my house all I want; I know every nook and cranny and every need within my house, but I don't know what someone else might need until I open my eyes and see what is in their home.
And I shouldn't expect others to just understand my restrictions without instructions prior to! I am learning this more and more as we deal with Owen's food allergies. There are people out there that just don't understand, and while I struggle with why they don't understand, I was forgetting to look at their house. I find that when I call on the Lord for understanding, He always leads me to the best place. Today, He led me to Phillipians, and He is so right!
I need to stop looking at myself (or in this situation Owen) and look at others. The idea of a small child having something permanent that could end their live is so very hard to fathom! Knowing it myself, doesn't make it easier to understand. But looking at others, I can see where it would be so hard to not really "get it." They don't live in my shoes and see what it could do, but it's not ignorance as much as it is lack of knowledge.
Yesterday, Owen went somewhere new. He didn't know the people but was excited to go. Without a thought, we let him go and made sure to inform them of his food restrictions and what would happen should he be exposed to his allergen: Peanuts. Well, we can't control everything. We couldn't control the fact that the adult in charge couldn't handle the situation, nor could we control that another child ate peanut butter and decided (smelling strongly of peanut butter) to rub his hands all through Owen's hair. Praise the Lord for His hands of safety that enveloped my sweet little boy last night and today, I Praise God for the opportunity to teach someone else. Rather than being angry at the situation (trust me I went through that at one point), I decided to put my best foot forward and make it a teachable moment to share with that location the severity of the food restrictions even when there isn't an actual attack.
My son didn't end up in the hospital, nor did he end up with hives or anything for that matter, but his heart was broken and his spirit was torn. It is important to understand the struggle that comes after something happens. The struggle with helping my child to understand that people do care. It's not that they don't care if he lives or dies. It's just a lack of understanding that he could live or die. I looked into my Owen's little house and saw fear. So today, I educating others on the aftermath of a situation that could lead to an allergic reaction and I encourage you to try to understand what others might be dealing with. Look in their houses and stand a moment in their shoes. It may just change your perspective.
March 28, 2012
Choose To Be
I saw this picture on my cousin's Facebook page today and thought, this is exactly what I needed. Exactly what I am feeling today. I could harp on about how I don't feel good and am frustrated with the up in the air diagnosis of possible arthritis that I have or that my house is a wreck and needs cleaned or that I can't get my kids to clean their rooms or do their chores, but today I choose to be.....
I choose to laugh. I choose to love.
I love to smile and laugh. I love to be an active part in my life. To live life at its fullest, despite. Some days I don't feel like doing anything, but that's not who I am choosing to be today.
God gives us each day as a new gift. He provides for us and shows us where the positives are. In 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 it says, "Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. God calls us to not dwell on that negative and focus on being positive despite the rain.
Maybe it has been raining for you for a very long time. It's not just a day. It's turned into a year or two. Maybe you have just started on a new path and can't see in front of you because of the darkness. Maybe the light feels too far away. Maybe it has been right there all along and you just didn't know it. God gives us all the answers, in His time (not ours). Choose to be positive. Choose to renew and choose to be that.
Dearest Heavenly Father,
Thank you for the true blessing of a new day. I have nothing without you, and today I choose to be that. I choose to accept that despite the fact that life can be hard, you are always there. You open my eyes and bless me if only I choose to listen. Thank you for all of the gifts you provide, not just those I see, but those I feel in my heart. I pray that you use those gifts in me to help others around me to see they also have special gifts from You who brings them life eternal. In your Son's most precious name, Amen.
March 23, 2012
Rest Stop
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” - Matthew 11:28
I'm tired, weak and even a little weary. It's been a rough week, and I feel this urge to ask for a pity party. But the sad truth is that I don't really want anyone to feel sorry for me. I really dislike having someone look at me with that sad face and say, Oh, I'm so sorry, come as close to say I hate it.
I went to the gym to workout today for the first time since Monday. I made excuses the rest of the week, good ones, but excuses nonetheless. I hurt. I felt like I had been hit by a truck and in turn felt sorry for myself. I was blessed enough to be encouraged by my wonderful friend Brandi yesterday who left me knowing what I had to do. Accept and move on. No matter what IT is, I have to accept before it drives me insane.
So, today, I showed up and after 13 minutes I wanted to quit. I called out for help to my sweet husband who sent me a nice message of put on your big girl pants and get over yourself. I knew he was right because, well I wouldn't have asked him for a pep talk if I didn't already know he could give me one. Then I called for a pep talk from someone else that can drop me to my knees in an instant. I called on The Lord, my Father! As I sat listening to my playlist, I began to pray. It was a simple prayer for the simple ability to push through and make it through the workout. Then I realized I was asking for more without even knowing it. I needed His reassurance, but He couldn't give it to me until I gave it all up to Him.
As I continued my workout on the row machine, I overheard a conversation next to me and couldn't help but hear the Lord's words in my heart. These wonderful Ladies that I have watched over the past few months on my journey to a healthier lifestyle were pushing through pain to feel better. WHAT? God are you talking to me? One of them was diagnosed with a rare form of arthritis that no one in the area really treats, but she can't afford to drive to Kentucky for the treatments she needs. Another was continuing to move despite her battle against MS, which is such a horribly painful disease. And despite the tales they were sharing, I saw smiles on their faces!! I saw them encouraging each other and moving despite what they were going through and I heard HIM! I remembered the verse that I shared above and was brought to tears as I rowed (I maintained my composure, but I was on the verge). Not only was that verse in my head, but a song that I just can't seem to find online to play for you. I can share the words for you.
There is peace in this world of war
There's hope in the wreckage of my grief
There's a love that cuts me to the core
And faith in the face of disbelief
CHORUS:
'Cause Jesus never let me down
Jesus never let me down
Oh, He would never leave me now
'Cause Jesus never let me down
I am scared, Oh I am petrified
I think of what tomorrow has in store
But there is grace to make it through the day
And the strength to make it through a million more
(Chorus)
There's no place to hide
That He will not climb
And no hell too low to hide me
He won't turn away
From one he saved
His promises remind me
That Jesus never let me down
Jesus never let me down
Oh, He would never leave me now
(Chorus)
No, He'll never let me down
Oh, Jesus never let me down
No, He'll never let me down
I have had things happen in my life and over the years there has always been the constant of God. Jesus truly has never let me down!! Things haven't always gone my way and the road is sometimes rocky, but Jesus never let me know. Never.
He will always be there; He promises me that. I've come to Him. I am weary and burdened. I'm tired and at times helpless, but Jesus has promised to bring me rest. He promises to bring me peace (not necessarily relief, but peace with what I am dealing with).
He promises the same to all who believe. He saved us all from our horrible sin. He saved us from ourselves. It's never too late to turn to Him to ask Him for forgiveness and the reassurance that He's got your back! My friends, today, I encourage you to turn to the Lord, YOUR Father. Our Father. He has all the answers, whether we like them or not, and he will give you rest when you need it most.
My Heavenly Father,
Today I come to you for both myself and those who need you most. I ask that those brothers and sister out there that do not have you in their heart keep an open mind and feel your presence no matter what their circumstances might be. I am so very tired and weak. I am heavily burdened by not only my sin but also my pain. I need rest and ask that you take over this. I will no longer worry about my troubles because they are not mine but yours to handle. I feel your arms around me and will continue to walk this path with you knowing that you have all the answers. I love you, my Lord and know that your will shall be done. In your Son's name, Amen.
March 22, 2012
Having Fun Being Good
Do you enjoy going to a grocery store alone (yeah, rare moment) and hear a child in the next aisle screaming they want something or a parent screaming (don't get me started on that topic) at their child for misbehaving or having a can of corn flung at you as you walk down that same aisle never suspecting a temper tantrum is in progress? That is just not cool for anyone to have to deal with, but we all see it in the stores. No one really wants to be that parent in the aisle with the child who is just not understanding not now or we have to buy these groceries but we can't buy everything in the store. And no one wants to have to listen to those children not understand. *I am using a grocery store as an example rather than get into the whole ban children from restaurants rant.*
So we, as parents, are responsible to discipline our children so that we never have to deal with that situation, but that word is almost as bad as a four letter word in most households. You don't want to be the bad guy. You don't want to play good cop/bad cop. You just don't want to deal with it for the most part, but you have to!! We all do.
Discipline is defined as training to act in accordance with rules. But we have to make things fun for our children because a 3 year old does not understand that the grocery store is not a place to remove all of his clothing and a 5 year old does not understand that the chocolate bars are not there for her to open and eat right there in the store. My version of discipline is a bit of avoidance. I want to avoid the situation so that I, quite honestly, do not have to deal with it! Lazy? Maybe, but hear me out and see if you support it.
Let's move away from the store to a park. Fun place for a child, but have you had a little one have that meltdown before leaving? We all have, don't say you didn't cause you are just telling a fib! ;-) So, what I do to avoid that is a few things..
First of all, some people enjoy impromptu visits to the park, but I find them miserable. Go in with a plan and have a "park kit" in your vehicle if you choose to do this.
Bring your water. Always have water for your children (a bottle for each to prevent a fight) so that they can keep hydrated no matter what the weather. You can keep bottles in your car, but I always recommend bringing water along whenever we go somewhere cause it's Murphy's Law for me ;-)
When you get to the park, take a moment and make eye contact. Establish rules and guidelines that must be followed when you are at the park. I get out of my van and stand at the side door to do that. Rules can include things such as, we need to be kind to our friends while we are at the park and do not eat mulch. I also include things such as do not walk in front of the swings unless you want to end up on the ground. And I am also known to tell them if they behave like fools and ignore that last rule, they will get hurt and (as is frequently quoted in our home) "I'm not taking you to the emergency room." We also include the rules for leaving....
We are leaving the park at 11:15 this morning. It is (get out your phone) now 10. That is an hour and 15 minutes from now. I have set an alarm to give you your 5 minute warning. No one is allowed to whine when the warning is issued. Nor is there any whining allowed when it is time to leave. And the best rule is Have fun! ;-)
You say, good rules Kim but do they work. For the most part, yes, but you have to be willing to stop talking to the other Mom's and push on the swing. You also have to be willing to climb when you don't want to and slide when you are wondering if the slide will really hold all that weight! And you have to be willing to enforce the rules. I give my children their 5 minute warning and another one at three and two. At one minute, I tell them it is time to tell their friends goodbye and to start moving towards our van. For the most part, the trips are successful with few boo boos and hopefully without meltdowns.
Have my children ended up in timeout because of behavior? Yup. Have my children ended up on their butts from walking in front of a swing? Yup ;-) But if you come in with structure, you get structure. If you come in with nothing, you get nothing.
Come up with a plan, no matter where you are going. Moms should all have crayons and paper in their purse as well as a pen and pencil. Small toys should be in there and a snack should ALWAYS be part of your trip.
Discipline can be fun and easy. You just have to have a plan and stick to it. I wish you all well trying to keep peace :-)
So we, as parents, are responsible to discipline our children so that we never have to deal with that situation, but that word is almost as bad as a four letter word in most households. You don't want to be the bad guy. You don't want to play good cop/bad cop. You just don't want to deal with it for the most part, but you have to!! We all do.
Discipline is defined as training to act in accordance with rules. But we have to make things fun for our children because a 3 year old does not understand that the grocery store is not a place to remove all of his clothing and a 5 year old does not understand that the chocolate bars are not there for her to open and eat right there in the store. My version of discipline is a bit of avoidance. I want to avoid the situation so that I, quite honestly, do not have to deal with it! Lazy? Maybe, but hear me out and see if you support it.
Let's move away from the store to a park. Fun place for a child, but have you had a little one have that meltdown before leaving? We all have, don't say you didn't cause you are just telling a fib! ;-) So, what I do to avoid that is a few things..
First of all, some people enjoy impromptu visits to the park, but I find them miserable. Go in with a plan and have a "park kit" in your vehicle if you choose to do this.
Bring your water. Always have water for your children (a bottle for each to prevent a fight) so that they can keep hydrated no matter what the weather. You can keep bottles in your car, but I always recommend bringing water along whenever we go somewhere cause it's Murphy's Law for me ;-)
When you get to the park, take a moment and make eye contact. Establish rules and guidelines that must be followed when you are at the park. I get out of my van and stand at the side door to do that. Rules can include things such as, we need to be kind to our friends while we are at the park and do not eat mulch. I also include things such as do not walk in front of the swings unless you want to end up on the ground. And I am also known to tell them if they behave like fools and ignore that last rule, they will get hurt and (as is frequently quoted in our home) "I'm not taking you to the emergency room." We also include the rules for leaving....
We are leaving the park at 11:15 this morning. It is (get out your phone) now 10. That is an hour and 15 minutes from now. I have set an alarm to give you your 5 minute warning. No one is allowed to whine when the warning is issued. Nor is there any whining allowed when it is time to leave. And the best rule is Have fun! ;-)
You say, good rules Kim but do they work. For the most part, yes, but you have to be willing to stop talking to the other Mom's and push on the swing. You also have to be willing to climb when you don't want to and slide when you are wondering if the slide will really hold all that weight! And you have to be willing to enforce the rules. I give my children their 5 minute warning and another one at three and two. At one minute, I tell them it is time to tell their friends goodbye and to start moving towards our van. For the most part, the trips are successful with few boo boos and hopefully without meltdowns.
Have my children ended up in timeout because of behavior? Yup. Have my children ended up on their butts from walking in front of a swing? Yup ;-) But if you come in with structure, you get structure. If you come in with nothing, you get nothing.
Come up with a plan, no matter where you are going. Moms should all have crayons and paper in their purse as well as a pen and pencil. Small toys should be in there and a snack should ALWAYS be part of your trip.
Discipline can be fun and easy. You just have to have a plan and stick to it. I wish you all well trying to keep peace :-)
March 20, 2012
Today is the Day
I am a 38 year old Mom, and I have arthritis. I feel like I am attending one of those meetings with the twelve step plan when I say that, but I am in denial about it and have decided that today is the day.
Amidst all this pain and feelings of failure, I must admit that not only am I human, but I'm aging faster than I ever imagined because of a horrible disease. Arthritis. Up until a few weeks ago, I just thought that was for the elderly or my Daddy (who will never age in my eyes).
I offhandedly received a diagnosis a few weeks ago and despite the fact that current tests have all come back negative, my doctor is still holding onto this diagnosis. I even get to go to one of them there special doctors to have them figure out the cause. But as part of this day that I own this pain and I step up to the plate regarding it, I want to tell you about a typical day.
Yesterday was an awesome day! I woke up and my pain level before my medication was about a 4 or 5. Yeah!!! I continued through my day and even with my medications, I would say that I never did get down below that 4. But it was still a good day. Today I got a slap in the face. Sometime overnight a Mac truck came into my home and ran me over and over and over and over and over, you get my point? I awoke at 3:30 this morning to this horrible pain in my arms and hands. I got up to go to the bathroom and found that the pain was also in my left knee and my hip. I hobbled to the bathroom and debated on if I go back to bed, take more pain medication or just get up for the day. Afraid that taking the pain medication would mess up my schedule, I just went back to bed. I don't wish I had done differently, but I do wish for a different outcome.
I took my pain medications this morning and took the two that is normally prescribed because the pain was that bad. As I keep moving, it does lessen the pain a little but I am still at an 8 even 3 hours after taking the pain medication. But life moves on. I had a few victories today. I started my van by myself this morning! Not once, but several times. That's a victory! I walked Owen up to the building today and made it back to my van without crying. That's a victory! I typed up a story that was on deadline for the paper and was only an hour late. That's a victory!
But let me share a few others that you wouldn't even think of. I brushed my hair today. I opened the lid on a cup as my 10 year old watched and waited to see if I needed his help. I put on my socks and only cried a little when my Daddy asked me if I needed his help. I tied my shoes as my 7 year old looked at me and said, "Mommy, I can do that for you if it is too hard." I took clothing out of the dryer and made it to the bottom of the steps before I couldn't carry them any further. I walked down the steps to do that. I typed this blog.
How humbling an experience it is to feel so helpless. As I left the preschool this morning thankful that Sofia had helped me both buckle and unbuckle her seat belt, I was floored by the Glory of God. As I struggle to have strength to do even the small things that I have taken for granted, a song came on the radio, Sufficient by Adie Camp. I sat in the van and cried out to Him for the strength just to make it through even one day and He enveloped me in His arms and reminded me that He is always there for me. He is truly all that I need. So those clothes that are at the bottom of the stairs, they better watch out cause I'm going to carry them up the steps! And those dishes that are sitting in there are going to be washed. Today is the day that I face this head on and do not let it defeat me. Today is the day.
Amidst all this pain and feelings of failure, I must admit that not only am I human, but I'm aging faster than I ever imagined because of a horrible disease. Arthritis. Up until a few weeks ago, I just thought that was for the elderly or my Daddy (who will never age in my eyes).
I offhandedly received a diagnosis a few weeks ago and despite the fact that current tests have all come back negative, my doctor is still holding onto this diagnosis. I even get to go to one of them there special doctors to have them figure out the cause. But as part of this day that I own this pain and I step up to the plate regarding it, I want to tell you about a typical day.
Yesterday was an awesome day! I woke up and my pain level before my medication was about a 4 or 5. Yeah!!! I continued through my day and even with my medications, I would say that I never did get down below that 4. But it was still a good day. Today I got a slap in the face. Sometime overnight a Mac truck came into my home and ran me over and over and over and over and over, you get my point? I awoke at 3:30 this morning to this horrible pain in my arms and hands. I got up to go to the bathroom and found that the pain was also in my left knee and my hip. I hobbled to the bathroom and debated on if I go back to bed, take more pain medication or just get up for the day. Afraid that taking the pain medication would mess up my schedule, I just went back to bed. I don't wish I had done differently, but I do wish for a different outcome.
I took my pain medications this morning and took the two that is normally prescribed because the pain was that bad. As I keep moving, it does lessen the pain a little but I am still at an 8 even 3 hours after taking the pain medication. But life moves on. I had a few victories today. I started my van by myself this morning! Not once, but several times. That's a victory! I walked Owen up to the building today and made it back to my van without crying. That's a victory! I typed up a story that was on deadline for the paper and was only an hour late. That's a victory!
But let me share a few others that you wouldn't even think of. I brushed my hair today. I opened the lid on a cup as my 10 year old watched and waited to see if I needed his help. I put on my socks and only cried a little when my Daddy asked me if I needed his help. I tied my shoes as my 7 year old looked at me and said, "Mommy, I can do that for you if it is too hard." I took clothing out of the dryer and made it to the bottom of the steps before I couldn't carry them any further. I walked down the steps to do that. I typed this blog.
How humbling an experience it is to feel so helpless. As I left the preschool this morning thankful that Sofia had helped me both buckle and unbuckle her seat belt, I was floored by the Glory of God. As I struggle to have strength to do even the small things that I have taken for granted, a song came on the radio, Sufficient by Adie Camp. I sat in the van and cried out to Him for the strength just to make it through even one day and He enveloped me in His arms and reminded me that He is always there for me. He is truly all that I need. So those clothes that are at the bottom of the stairs, they better watch out cause I'm going to carry them up the steps! And those dishes that are sitting in there are going to be washed. Today is the day that I face this head on and do not let it defeat me. Today is the day.
March 19, 2012
Funny, Odd
I have found that my children have an odd thing that seems to drive them crazy and to the point of them actually doing what I've asked them to do. I find they aren't good listeners the first time. And typically the second or third time either. Essentially, they aren't any different than any other child out there, but let me share where I go to the edge and they listen.
Today is a perfect example. My 10 year old was doing his math homework and asked if he could be finished for the day. He had done two sheets out of five after all. I asked him to show me the sheets and found that there were several problems left undone. He said he was going to do those another time when he did the other sheets, but I spoke logically that if he doesn't do them now, he might not realize the sheets that are partially done when it comes time to turn it all in. He didn't understand my logic, and tried to argue.
Out of that frustrated feeling that all Moms feel from time to time, I immediately broke out into prayer out loud. It went something like this,
"Dear Lord, Please give me patience and peace that I do not spank this child in front of me who is doing his best to push me to the edge as he refuses to listen to logic and do what has been simply asked of him."
How surprising it was when I opened my eyes to find that not only was the culprit no longer standing in front of me, but he was sitting at the desk completing those problems that were left blank on his homework sheet.
Odd, in a funny sort of way, that outward spoken words of frustration would cause a child to immediately start listening rather than anger or punishment. I have tried lately to not show my children anger when their behavior is at its worst. Instead, I focus on finding a peaceful frame of mind to promote that peace in our household. It's working, for the most part, but I will keep openly putting myself into timeout and praying for that patience that will show my children that I am only human.
Today is a perfect example. My 10 year old was doing his math homework and asked if he could be finished for the day. He had done two sheets out of five after all. I asked him to show me the sheets and found that there were several problems left undone. He said he was going to do those another time when he did the other sheets, but I spoke logically that if he doesn't do them now, he might not realize the sheets that are partially done when it comes time to turn it all in. He didn't understand my logic, and tried to argue.
Out of that frustrated feeling that all Moms feel from time to time, I immediately broke out into prayer out loud. It went something like this,
"Dear Lord, Please give me patience and peace that I do not spank this child in front of me who is doing his best to push me to the edge as he refuses to listen to logic and do what has been simply asked of him."
How surprising it was when I opened my eyes to find that not only was the culprit no longer standing in front of me, but he was sitting at the desk completing those problems that were left blank on his homework sheet.
Odd, in a funny sort of way, that outward spoken words of frustration would cause a child to immediately start listening rather than anger or punishment. I have tried lately to not show my children anger when their behavior is at its worst. Instead, I focus on finding a peaceful frame of mind to promote that peace in our household. It's working, for the most part, but I will keep openly putting myself into timeout and praying for that patience that will show my children that I am only human.
March 16, 2012
Loving me In spite
The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying: Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.
Jeremiah 31:3
Shocking headline here: I'm not perfect. GASP! I know; calm down. There's more. You are not perfect either. Okay, pick up your jaw from the floor. Chill out for a moment and hear me out. There is hope for both of us if we just believe! Every day, I wonder at the goodness that is the Lord and the fact that no matter what I do, no matter how horrible I am as a human being, He still loves me! In spite of my flaws He loves me. I dare say, because of my flaws He loves me.
I woke up this morning and sinned from the get go. I'm sure I did because that is my nature. We were created with flaws, and Eve, the mother of sin, started the pattern of how we were going to behave, yesterday, today and even tomorrow. God made us with His love and He created us knowing that one day we would sin and He would have to love us in spite.
How humbling that feeling is for me! I know that He loves me. I just can't quite grasp why. I am an overall decent person, but I really do have my bad habits. I yell a little too much at my children some days. I am a horrible housekeeper. I get mad at my husband when he is impatient with me. I am addicted to food. I am just flawed, a diamond in the rough. And Praise the Lord because He loves me in spite!
Jeremiah 31:3
Shocking headline here: I'm not perfect. GASP! I know; calm down. There's more. You are not perfect either. Okay, pick up your jaw from the floor. Chill out for a moment and hear me out. There is hope for both of us if we just believe! Every day, I wonder at the goodness that is the Lord and the fact that no matter what I do, no matter how horrible I am as a human being, He still loves me! In spite of my flaws He loves me. I dare say, because of my flaws He loves me.
I woke up this morning and sinned from the get go. I'm sure I did because that is my nature. We were created with flaws, and Eve, the mother of sin, started the pattern of how we were going to behave, yesterday, today and even tomorrow. God made us with His love and He created us knowing that one day we would sin and He would have to love us in spite.
How humbling that feeling is for me! I know that He loves me. I just can't quite grasp why. I am an overall decent person, but I really do have my bad habits. I yell a little too much at my children some days. I am a horrible housekeeper. I get mad at my husband when he is impatient with me. I am addicted to food. I am just flawed, a diamond in the rough. And Praise the Lord because He loves me in spite!
March 15, 2012
Fear of Running Fat
For quite sometime now, I have watched my friends and their progress moving from a sedentary life to being active, some even running. I have always said the same thing... "I don't run unless there is something big, ugly and mean chasing after me." It has always been my coping with being overweight. I don't want to run because I'm afraid what others might say.
For several weeks now I have been thinking about it and realized the other day that I've reached my upper threshold for walking on the treadmill and am running low on options. Yes, I can change the incline. I do that. Did I increase the speed? Well, I have short legs and strides, so 3.4 is the fastest I can go on there without running. We all know what I think about running.
But today was different. I am fed up. I have been dealing with pain from possible arthritis and am beyond ready to find relief. I find it when I workout, not 100 percent but close enough to at least make it through the day. Sitting still is no longer an option for me. I planned to go to the Y to workout after dropping my ornery monkeypants at preschool. So, imagine my surprise when I didn't turn to go to the Y. Didn't even slow down for the yellow light, shhhhh. ;-) I drove right past and went straight to the park. I don't even know what I was thinking to be honest.
I parked the car and as I got my music ready, another car pulled in. My thoughts immediately went to crap. I can't do this. Then I was like, I can go walk and go from there. I got out and proceeded to the trail. It is a wide open space where my brain sent me to walk today. Every car that goes past can see!! The neighborhood around can see!! And worst of all, I can see :(
As I got started walking around that first lap, my brain kept saying just walk, Kim, That's all you are going to do. I walk and I watch as cars drive past (not many as it is a slower road), the woman from the parking lot is now running on the trail, a man from the neighborhood has brought his dog over to the park. Just walk Kim. And I did just that, I walked. As I got close to the end of my first lap (It's a 0.7 mile path- I looked it up when I got home), I said, Just keep walking. A song came on and something snapped. No, I hadn't hurt myself. Something in my brain just said,stupid head, no one else gives a crap what you are doing! Yeah, there is a guy walking his dog, a lady running and a car just went by, but YOU are the fat chick who is stopping yourself from running just because you are the fat chick! Pull up your big girl pants and DO IT!! There are stations along the path that allow people to stop and do particular physical exercises, so I started at the first station and ran to the second. I RAN!! I walked to the second station, ran to the next, walked to the next, ran to the next. Lap after lap after lap. I did it and I realized, YES! I AM the fat chick that just ran!!! And I'm really excited about that.
I ended up running 1.4 miles! I walked a total of 2.8 miles for a total of 4.2 miles. I learned some valuable lessons this morning about running and me....1. I can do it!! I'm not a speed runner, but I have started.
2. I am stronger than I thought.
3. I am the only one paying attention to myself.
4. Someone should have told me to wear a pair of pants with a drawstring!!
5. I can do it!!
6. Running/ jogging is not as bad as I imagined.
7. I am my worst critic.
8. Running doesn't hurt my asthma nor my joint pain that I've been dealing with.
9. I made my husband smile today at the thought of me doing something that I know he loves to do.
10. I CAN DO IT!!
I really can do it. I'm the fat chick you might have seen running in the park today. I didn't break any world records, nor did I break any bones! But I did it. Today, I made some fat cry and feel better than I have all week, but most importantly I got over my fear of running fat!
For several weeks now I have been thinking about it and realized the other day that I've reached my upper threshold for walking on the treadmill and am running low on options. Yes, I can change the incline. I do that. Did I increase the speed? Well, I have short legs and strides, so 3.4 is the fastest I can go on there without running. We all know what I think about running.
But today was different. I am fed up. I have been dealing with pain from possible arthritis and am beyond ready to find relief. I find it when I workout, not 100 percent but close enough to at least make it through the day. Sitting still is no longer an option for me. I planned to go to the Y to workout after dropping my ornery monkeypants at preschool. So, imagine my surprise when I didn't turn to go to the Y. Didn't even slow down for the yellow light, shhhhh. ;-) I drove right past and went straight to the park. I don't even know what I was thinking to be honest.
I parked the car and as I got my music ready, another car pulled in. My thoughts immediately went to crap. I can't do this. Then I was like, I can go walk and go from there. I got out and proceeded to the trail. It is a wide open space where my brain sent me to walk today. Every car that goes past can see!! The neighborhood around can see!! And worst of all, I can see :(
As I got started walking around that first lap, my brain kept saying just walk, Kim, That's all you are going to do. I walk and I watch as cars drive past (not many as it is a slower road), the woman from the parking lot is now running on the trail, a man from the neighborhood has brought his dog over to the park. Just walk Kim. And I did just that, I walked. As I got close to the end of my first lap (It's a 0.7 mile path- I looked it up when I got home), I said, Just keep walking. A song came on and something snapped. No, I hadn't hurt myself. Something in my brain just said,stupid head, no one else gives a crap what you are doing! Yeah, there is a guy walking his dog, a lady running and a car just went by, but YOU are the fat chick who is stopping yourself from running just because you are the fat chick! Pull up your big girl pants and DO IT!! There are stations along the path that allow people to stop and do particular physical exercises, so I started at the first station and ran to the second. I RAN!! I walked to the second station, ran to the next, walked to the next, ran to the next. Lap after lap after lap. I did it and I realized, YES! I AM the fat chick that just ran!!! And I'm really excited about that.
I ended up running 1.4 miles! I walked a total of 2.8 miles for a total of 4.2 miles. I learned some valuable lessons this morning about running and me....1. I can do it!! I'm not a speed runner, but I have started.
2. I am stronger than I thought.
3. I am the only one paying attention to myself.
4. Someone should have told me to wear a pair of pants with a drawstring!!
5. I can do it!!
6. Running/ jogging is not as bad as I imagined.
7. I am my worst critic.
8. Running doesn't hurt my asthma nor my joint pain that I've been dealing with.
9. I made my husband smile today at the thought of me doing something that I know he loves to do.
10. I CAN DO IT!!
I really can do it. I'm the fat chick you might have seen running in the park today. I didn't break any world records, nor did I break any bones! But I did it. Today, I made some fat cry and feel better than I have all week, but most importantly I got over my fear of running fat!
March 7, 2012
What lengths we go to
My heart is heavy this morning after hearing a news story of a mother's sacrifice. Amidst the horrible storms and tornadoes throughout the Midwest last week, Stephenie Decker did what any Mom would do. She survived for her kids! And she saved their lives. We are hearing so many stories of heros in the aftermath of the storms, but Stephenie's story stands out for me as one of the lengths we go to for our children.
As the tornado approached, she covered her children with a blanket and used her body to shield them from the wind and flying debris. She felt the house falling on top of her, piece by piece, and reassured her babies that they would be okay. As her children screamed things such as, "I can't live without you." and "Please don't let me die." She kept telling them they were not going to die. She kept them safe and in return she lost her legs.
But this Mom is so much more blessed than her current circumstances appear. She acted like I would hope many Moms would act by protecting her babies. And yes, her sacrifice comes at a price, but her children came out without as much as a scratch when so many others lost their lives. God granted this mother safety for her children and spared her life for a reason.
Proverbs 31:26-31 "She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: Many woman do noble things, but you surpass them all." Charm is deceptive , and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
This verse comes to mind with this mother's noble act. She took care of her children and was courageous to the end. As she sits in the hospital healing from her wounds, but physical and emotional, I pray for her peace to know that when she finally meets our Maker, He will look to her and say, "well done, good and faithful one."
As the tornado approached, she covered her children with a blanket and used her body to shield them from the wind and flying debris. She felt the house falling on top of her, piece by piece, and reassured her babies that they would be okay. As her children screamed things such as, "I can't live without you." and "Please don't let me die." She kept telling them they were not going to die. She kept them safe and in return she lost her legs.
But this Mom is so much more blessed than her current circumstances appear. She acted like I would hope many Moms would act by protecting her babies. And yes, her sacrifice comes at a price, but her children came out without as much as a scratch when so many others lost their lives. God granted this mother safety for her children and spared her life for a reason.
Proverbs 31:26-31 "She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: Many woman do noble things, but you surpass them all." Charm is deceptive , and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
This verse comes to mind with this mother's noble act. She took care of her children and was courageous to the end. As she sits in the hospital healing from her wounds, but physical and emotional, I pray for her peace to know that when she finally meets our Maker, He will look to her and say, "well done, good and faithful one."
March 6, 2012
Issue 8
I know some of you have already voted and some of you have already decided how you are going to vote. In our area, we are looking at Issue 8 for school improvements. Many are probably thinking I am insane to even take on and comment about this political issue, but I believe there are some things that need to be said and if you haven't looked at the name of the blog then you might want to do that before calling me crazy (since I already admit that I am).
First of all, those of you who think that this is an issue simply because the school district is money hungry and don't know how to handle its money, you really need to look once more at the bond issue and see what it is all about. Also, if you think that households that have children are all that need to be taxed, let me remind you that someone paid for your education somewhere down the line and therefore if you want your social security check, you need to help pay for my children(s) educations. Also, others who think cutting teachers or teacher salaries should take a look at a teacher's job first and foremost and realize that about half of what is in his/her room was purchased by that teacher, not the taxpayers. And when thinking about that also realize that if you put large number of individuals out of a job you are definitely not working to stimulate your own economy.
Somewhere down the road, we all became idiots. I have to admit, I'm one. I have been known to say that this area doesn't need this money and what is this company or this government branch really doing for me. Here is when I have to take a step back and say, let's let the issue speak for itself.
Below is some information on this school issue that I hope sheds light for those who are still on the fence or those who just have their eyes closed to reality....
*The district and community will become partners with the Ohio School Facilities Commission to replace 13 aging elementary school buildings, provide minor renovations for the two other elementary buildings and replace Franklin Heights High School, which is the oldest high school in the district.
*There will be NO INCREASE to our annual taxes. Some are thinking they want to lower the taxes a
and prevent them from staying the same, but passage of this issue will not make a difference in your taxes, but it will make a difference in your community!
*It is estimated that the replacement schools will eliminate $40 million in deferred maintenance and provide the most up-to-date buildings for our students. This will SAVE the district, and you, as taxpayers, money in the long run.
*With community support, the state of Ohio will provide money to the district to do this. Not just money, but MORE THAN $120 million to go toward the project. Seriously!! That is incredible.
*No money from this issue will go towards salaries or other operating costs. We are looking at construction only.
*While some maintenance has been done on the buildings, the district is running more than one and the extra money for some changes just isn't there.
*Many of these school buildings are beyond old. We are talking buildings built in the 1960s. Have you done any major repairs to your home? Have you looked at what kinds of things need done to a home built in the 1960s? How about a school building?
So, those are just some of the highlights. Let me tell you about one building that is clearly close to my heart. JC Sommer Elementary. My boys are there right now. I just voted there actually. On hot summer days my children go to a non-air conditioned building to which I would normally just say suck it up and deal with it cause my school didn't have air conditioning and I turned out okay. Here is the problem. The electrical system. If you look in my house, it is a nightmare at how old the wiring is. My sweet hubby and I even talked of upgrading our wiring and realized the cost would be quite a lot to run new wires through the entire house. Guess what, that building has the exact same wiring.
That wiring has to take quite a bit of a hit on a daily basis to run everything that is in the building, and have you ever had an outlet that you had to not only not use but unplug something to use another appliance (like I have a friend who cannot turn on her hair dryer in the bathroom when someone is using the microwave in the kitchen). JC is like that. We have teachers trying to run fans during the hot days but there are issues there. The fire department was out last year because of sparks that came from the outlet. Were they able to do much with it? Nope, and it happens all the time.
Computers? Well forget that! There isn't enough electricity for any kind of upgrade for that school. It reminds me of an old nautical boat where the first mate says, "She's giving it all she got, Capt'n." That's just it. The building has given all it has, and our children are the ones left to suffer the consequences. I would love for my children to have access to a computer, but they just can't have it right now. Our children are going to be passed up for jobs because of this one day!! There are children in our district who aren't blessed enough to have computers at home to use. Those children don't have the advantages that some of us can provide to our kids. And without computers in the school, there is no positive outlook in our world of booming technology.
So when you go vote today, put your checkbook aside. Stop thinking of how to spend that "tax refund." Think of the matching money provided by the state to allow for a better location, a better atmosphere for the children that will be coming through these buildings in years to come.
First of all, those of you who think that this is an issue simply because the school district is money hungry and don't know how to handle its money, you really need to look once more at the bond issue and see what it is all about. Also, if you think that households that have children are all that need to be taxed, let me remind you that someone paid for your education somewhere down the line and therefore if you want your social security check, you need to help pay for my children(s) educations. Also, others who think cutting teachers or teacher salaries should take a look at a teacher's job first and foremost and realize that about half of what is in his/her room was purchased by that teacher, not the taxpayers. And when thinking about that also realize that if you put large number of individuals out of a job you are definitely not working to stimulate your own economy.
Somewhere down the road, we all became idiots. I have to admit, I'm one. I have been known to say that this area doesn't need this money and what is this company or this government branch really doing for me. Here is when I have to take a step back and say, let's let the issue speak for itself.
Below is some information on this school issue that I hope sheds light for those who are still on the fence or those who just have their eyes closed to reality....
*The district and community will become partners with the Ohio School Facilities Commission to replace 13 aging elementary school buildings, provide minor renovations for the two other elementary buildings and replace Franklin Heights High School, which is the oldest high school in the district.
*There will be NO INCREASE to our annual taxes. Some are thinking they want to lower the taxes a
and prevent them from staying the same, but passage of this issue will not make a difference in your taxes, but it will make a difference in your community!
*It is estimated that the replacement schools will eliminate $40 million in deferred maintenance and provide the most up-to-date buildings for our students. This will SAVE the district, and you, as taxpayers, money in the long run.
*With community support, the state of Ohio will provide money to the district to do this. Not just money, but MORE THAN $120 million to go toward the project. Seriously!! That is incredible.
*No money from this issue will go towards salaries or other operating costs. We are looking at construction only.
*While some maintenance has been done on the buildings, the district is running more than one and the extra money for some changes just isn't there.
*Many of these school buildings are beyond old. We are talking buildings built in the 1960s. Have you done any major repairs to your home? Have you looked at what kinds of things need done to a home built in the 1960s? How about a school building?
So, those are just some of the highlights. Let me tell you about one building that is clearly close to my heart. JC Sommer Elementary. My boys are there right now. I just voted there actually. On hot summer days my children go to a non-air conditioned building to which I would normally just say suck it up and deal with it cause my school didn't have air conditioning and I turned out okay. Here is the problem. The electrical system. If you look in my house, it is a nightmare at how old the wiring is. My sweet hubby and I even talked of upgrading our wiring and realized the cost would be quite a lot to run new wires through the entire house. Guess what, that building has the exact same wiring.
That wiring has to take quite a bit of a hit on a daily basis to run everything that is in the building, and have you ever had an outlet that you had to not only not use but unplug something to use another appliance (like I have a friend who cannot turn on her hair dryer in the bathroom when someone is using the microwave in the kitchen). JC is like that. We have teachers trying to run fans during the hot days but there are issues there. The fire department was out last year because of sparks that came from the outlet. Were they able to do much with it? Nope, and it happens all the time.
Computers? Well forget that! There isn't enough electricity for any kind of upgrade for that school. It reminds me of an old nautical boat where the first mate says, "She's giving it all she got, Capt'n." That's just it. The building has given all it has, and our children are the ones left to suffer the consequences. I would love for my children to have access to a computer, but they just can't have it right now. Our children are going to be passed up for jobs because of this one day!! There are children in our district who aren't blessed enough to have computers at home to use. Those children don't have the advantages that some of us can provide to our kids. And without computers in the school, there is no positive outlook in our world of booming technology.
So when you go vote today, put your checkbook aside. Stop thinking of how to spend that "tax refund." Think of the matching money provided by the state to allow for a better location, a better atmosphere for the children that will be coming through these buildings in years to come.
March 5, 2012
The Devil's Keep by C.A. Deyton: A Review
Good Afternoon everyone :-) I decided it was time to see who is reading this thing ;-) I am going to mix things up a bit and change what happens on what days and when I post just to test the waters. That is going to be helpful as I determine the course of things in the long run for Insanity.
So today is a discussion about a book I am reading. I'm in the middle of it, but I wanted to share it with you. Not so long ago, I told you about my friend, C.A. Deyton and that she wrote a book, The Devil's Keep. I haven't even told her at this point anything about my opinion, but I do encourage you to take a look at the book to decide if it is right for you to read.
I proudly bought her first book and was so excited to get started reading it. I didn't have a clue when I bought it what it was about, but as I read the blurb, I thought, uh oh. How in the world am I going to read this? And how am I going to tell my friend that I don't read these kinds of books? I was worried more about hurting her feelings than anything, so I did what all good friends do. I put it off. :(
Let me be perfectly honest here, I'm not one for vampires or books about vampires. I've never read that ever so popular book or seen any of the movies that are out there that you all know what I am talking about. I won't even mention it for fear that someone might scream in my ear about those characters that are both deadly and apparently intriguing for people other than me. I don't see what others do in the book. I just don't get it.
So imagine my feelings when I realized that this close friend of mine had written her first book about vampires. I remember talking to my sweet hubby about it and saying what in the world do I do. His response was so classic to him. He said, uhhh read it! hee hee. What! and do the obvious?
So a few weeks ago, I met Michael Bartlett. Oh Michael. This dreamy and dangerous individual that I picture as Johnny Depp. I see him as this dark character with innocent roots that while not directly linked to his occupation at the beginning of the book, those roots do play an integral part in the process of moving through the book to further develop both him and those characters around him. And here I am rambling on about a vampire!! ME! I can hardly believe it as these words leave my fingertips.
Then beautiful Miren comes into the picture. All in white with the most incredible iridescent butterflies floating around here. She brings this presence of peace into a world of chaos and death. And she brings love. This angel and my vampire quickly develop a love that is so deep and so powerful that it requires the attention of Ultio, the devil, himself.
As C.A. Deyton, weaves her tale, you feel the strength of this love and the pain of these characters as they face the inevitable wrath of Ultio in their forbidden love story. You become personally invested in this book and find yourself rooting for the two to overcome all obstacles they encounter. This novel begs to be read! And I for one, cannot wait to finish to find out how everyone comes out and to read the sequel which is slated out this year!
Bravo, My dear friend! You have an incredible talent and a wonderful book here. To all my friends reading this review, please consider purchasing the book. Don't have a Kindle? Don't have a Nook? Did you know you can download the app to your smart phone or on your computer to be able to read books offered by those two sources? Look into it! This book should be shared by all.
Check out C.A. Deyton's site for the book trailer and any updates on An Angel's Revenge, the much anticipated sequel!
So today is a discussion about a book I am reading. I'm in the middle of it, but I wanted to share it with you. Not so long ago, I told you about my friend, C.A. Deyton and that she wrote a book, The Devil's Keep. I haven't even told her at this point anything about my opinion, but I do encourage you to take a look at the book to decide if it is right for you to read.
I proudly bought her first book and was so excited to get started reading it. I didn't have a clue when I bought it what it was about, but as I read the blurb, I thought, uh oh. How in the world am I going to read this? And how am I going to tell my friend that I don't read these kinds of books? I was worried more about hurting her feelings than anything, so I did what all good friends do. I put it off. :(
Let me be perfectly honest here, I'm not one for vampires or books about vampires. I've never read that ever so popular book or seen any of the movies that are out there that you all know what I am talking about. I won't even mention it for fear that someone might scream in my ear about those characters that are both deadly and apparently intriguing for people other than me. I don't see what others do in the book. I just don't get it.
So imagine my feelings when I realized that this close friend of mine had written her first book about vampires. I remember talking to my sweet hubby about it and saying what in the world do I do. His response was so classic to him. He said, uhhh read it! hee hee. What! and do the obvious?
So a few weeks ago, I met Michael Bartlett. Oh Michael. This dreamy and dangerous individual that I picture as Johnny Depp. I see him as this dark character with innocent roots that while not directly linked to his occupation at the beginning of the book, those roots do play an integral part in the process of moving through the book to further develop both him and those characters around him. And here I am rambling on about a vampire!! ME! I can hardly believe it as these words leave my fingertips.
Then beautiful Miren comes into the picture. All in white with the most incredible iridescent butterflies floating around here. She brings this presence of peace into a world of chaos and death. And she brings love. This angel and my vampire quickly develop a love that is so deep and so powerful that it requires the attention of Ultio, the devil, himself.
As C.A. Deyton, weaves her tale, you feel the strength of this love and the pain of these characters as they face the inevitable wrath of Ultio in their forbidden love story. You become personally invested in this book and find yourself rooting for the two to overcome all obstacles they encounter. This novel begs to be read! And I for one, cannot wait to finish to find out how everyone comes out and to read the sequel which is slated out this year!
Bravo, My dear friend! You have an incredible talent and a wonderful book here. To all my friends reading this review, please consider purchasing the book. Don't have a Kindle? Don't have a Nook? Did you know you can download the app to your smart phone or on your computer to be able to read books offered by those two sources? Look into it! This book should be shared by all.
Check out C.A. Deyton's site for the book trailer and any updates on An Angel's Revenge, the much anticipated sequel!
March 2, 2012
Date Night
How important is date night in your family? Wait, stop, step back a second. Wrong question. How important is date night with Mom or Dad in your family? Not sure what I'm talking about? Let me explain.
In our home, we find that the children thrive on alone time with just Mom or Dad. We make it a priority to have one on one time with each of the children each month. For instance, Sofia and Mommy went to Disney on Ice for our February date. We took the boys to Winter Jam in January. Wade takes the boys to hockey games and basketball games and football games. Getting the point?
We decided after Owen was born that it was very important to spend time with the children individually to show them our time with them is special. Since I get to see Sofia more often than the boys, it's nice to let Sofia have her special time with Daddy, but we aren't particular about it.
I wanted to devote this post to cost effective ways to have Parent Date nights for your children.
*Picnic with Pops. Time to get a lunch together (or dinner) for Daddy to take someone to the park. Doesn't matter which child as this is something that can be for any of the kids.
*Mealtime with Momma. I love to cook with my children. I'm not the best cook, but I really enjoy the personal time I get with the children when we spend time together in the kitchen. What I try to do is plan a meal that someone can help me with and while Dad keeps the other two occupied without getting tied up we do our magic in the kitchen. It can be a lot of fun that you can turn into a science, math, English (any kind of educational) lesson.
*Sporting Events. We do these quite frequently. Find out the local high school's schedule and go watch a game together. These events tend to be low cost and a ton of fun.
*Matinee Movie Day. These are cheaper when you go in the afternoon, but a wonderful activity to do on a weekend when the littlest one is napping :-)
*Take someone for a walk or a bike ride. Do you have a toddler? Oh my, those are some of my favorite memories-- walking with a little one who has no sense of direction. Let your toddler decide which direction you go. So much fun to look at the world through the eyes of a youngun.
*Zoo. If you have a zoo pass and a zoo close by ;-), this is a cost effective thing to do. Nice for exercise around the zoo and nice to spend quality time together.
*Miniature Golf. This is always a great family activity as well as a great date event.
*Tea Party. This is a fun time with our princess. Empty out the house and let her host you in a special tea party.
*Reading time. Quiet time with a child at the library just reading can be a lot of fun.
*Go to the local coffee shop for hot chocolate. This is fun, especially with our local place that we love. They have musicians on Friday and Saturday nights that really give a special dimension to date night. :-)
There are numerous other things that you can do with your children. See what kinds of things they want to do and go from there. :-) Enjoy your special date nights!
In our home, we find that the children thrive on alone time with just Mom or Dad. We make it a priority to have one on one time with each of the children each month. For instance, Sofia and Mommy went to Disney on Ice for our February date. We took the boys to Winter Jam in January. Wade takes the boys to hockey games and basketball games and football games. Getting the point?
We decided after Owen was born that it was very important to spend time with the children individually to show them our time with them is special. Since I get to see Sofia more often than the boys, it's nice to let Sofia have her special time with Daddy, but we aren't particular about it.
I wanted to devote this post to cost effective ways to have Parent Date nights for your children.
*Picnic with Pops. Time to get a lunch together (or dinner) for Daddy to take someone to the park. Doesn't matter which child as this is something that can be for any of the kids.
*Mealtime with Momma. I love to cook with my children. I'm not the best cook, but I really enjoy the personal time I get with the children when we spend time together in the kitchen. What I try to do is plan a meal that someone can help me with and while Dad keeps the other two occupied without getting tied up we do our magic in the kitchen. It can be a lot of fun that you can turn into a science, math, English (any kind of educational) lesson.
*Sporting Events. We do these quite frequently. Find out the local high school's schedule and go watch a game together. These events tend to be low cost and a ton of fun.
*Matinee Movie Day. These are cheaper when you go in the afternoon, but a wonderful activity to do on a weekend when the littlest one is napping :-)
*Take someone for a walk or a bike ride. Do you have a toddler? Oh my, those are some of my favorite memories-- walking with a little one who has no sense of direction. Let your toddler decide which direction you go. So much fun to look at the world through the eyes of a youngun.
*Zoo. If you have a zoo pass and a zoo close by ;-), this is a cost effective thing to do. Nice for exercise around the zoo and nice to spend quality time together.
*Miniature Golf. This is always a great family activity as well as a great date event.
*Tea Party. This is a fun time with our princess. Empty out the house and let her host you in a special tea party.
*Reading time. Quiet time with a child at the library just reading can be a lot of fun.
*Go to the local coffee shop for hot chocolate. This is fun, especially with our local place that we love. They have musicians on Friday and Saturday nights that really give a special dimension to date night. :-)
There are numerous other things that you can do with your children. See what kinds of things they want to do and go from there. :-) Enjoy your special date nights!
March 1, 2012
How do you do it?
I realized today that many of my friends have been asking me how I am eating in my weight loss journey. I'm not a nutritionist. I'm not a dietician. I don't have the use of one, nor do I pretend to be any of those to get through this.
Am I a magician? Sometimes I feel like it. There are so many days that I just want to say, hey I'm sorry I want to eat out. But Wade is right there and what does he say? No Babe, what did we plan so that I can get in there and work on it. Then I feel like dessert and I mean a LOT of dessert and a friend steps up and asks me on Facebook how I'm doing or what I'm doing or how I manage to eat well, and that talks me off yet another ledge.
After one question, I thought it was definitely time to share and to be encouraged by that sharing. First of all, let me tell you that I am FAR from perfect!! Oh, heavens am I far from perfect. And guess what! I ate ice cream last night. No joke. But what did I do different this time that I didn't 6 months ago? I measured out 67g of ice cream. Yes, just a measly 67 g. But I also made some green tea to go with it to help fill me up when I think that is just not enough. It really is.
Little tips that have helped me, and I hope help those friends struggling.
*Portion. Portion. Portion. People say it all the time. I mean, until they are blue in the face. Do not use a regular size plate. They are too big. I went out and bought several kid's size plates to use. I try not to use regular size plates when I can help it. I find myself more full when I see this plate that is so full. It's a mental thing. ;-)
*Meal Plan. I know that I'm repeating things you probably already know, but if you don't plan it, you won't eat it! You have to come in with a plan and go with it. Plan for those busy nights with crockpot meals or leftover nights. Don't have time to meal plan? Well suck it up, Sister (or Brother)! It does take time, but it is worth it. I also cheat. I use e-mealz.com and love it. I don't use all of their meals, but they help us to have a plan and go with it.
*Snack. 3 meals a day doesn't work. You have to have healthy snack options that will help you get to your next meal without hunger. Come in not hungry to eat less. Below are some of the snacks that are my favorite.
mini rice cakes (caramel and cheddar cheese are my favorites)
carrot sticks (you can use ranch)
beef or turkey jerky
cottage cheese
greek yogurt
protein bars
granola bars (working on my own recipe that is allergen friendly, check back for that)
fresh fruit (but I try to do those in the afternoon only)
cheese sticks
*Track Calories. Keep track of what you eat. I am finding that I don't eat enough food some days to continue losing weight. It surprises me sometimes how little I am eating. I have to work hard to make my calories.
*Get an accountability partner or two or three or four or a dozen!! Get as many people surrounding you as you need. And use them! When they ask you how you are doing, be honest. When you are having a tough day, you need to tell your accountability partner. I send pictures of my meals to my sweet hubby, especially on days that I feel like I want to eat more. It keeps me accountable for what I am putting into my body.
*Get active. Do not park in the front parking spot. Park in the back and walk farther and don't mosey! Pretend like it is raining and you don't want to get wet. Working out is not something I considered fun before, but let me tell you what, I plug in my music (which is normally Praise and Worship music) and make my fat cry (sweat). It is beautiful to go and workout and feel each and every milestone success.
And guess what, when you mess up, just get back on track the next day and keep moving! Do I feel guilty about dessert? Nope, I ate consciously and I had plenty of calories to spare. Focus on each day and know that you can be a success. I wake each morning praising the Lord that I have another day to try to make things right. I get moving no matter if it hurts. I fight through and I do what I can to succeed. And each day, I show up. I just show up and live my life. Don't stop living and don't stop fighting :-)
Am I a magician? Sometimes I feel like it. There are so many days that I just want to say, hey I'm sorry I want to eat out. But Wade is right there and what does he say? No Babe, what did we plan so that I can get in there and work on it. Then I feel like dessert and I mean a LOT of dessert and a friend steps up and asks me on Facebook how I'm doing or what I'm doing or how I manage to eat well, and that talks me off yet another ledge.
After one question, I thought it was definitely time to share and to be encouraged by that sharing. First of all, let me tell you that I am FAR from perfect!! Oh, heavens am I far from perfect. And guess what! I ate ice cream last night. No joke. But what did I do different this time that I didn't 6 months ago? I measured out 67g of ice cream. Yes, just a measly 67 g. But I also made some green tea to go with it to help fill me up when I think that is just not enough. It really is.
Little tips that have helped me, and I hope help those friends struggling.
*Portion. Portion. Portion. People say it all the time. I mean, until they are blue in the face. Do not use a regular size plate. They are too big. I went out and bought several kid's size plates to use. I try not to use regular size plates when I can help it. I find myself more full when I see this plate that is so full. It's a mental thing. ;-)
*Meal Plan. I know that I'm repeating things you probably already know, but if you don't plan it, you won't eat it! You have to come in with a plan and go with it. Plan for those busy nights with crockpot meals or leftover nights. Don't have time to meal plan? Well suck it up, Sister (or Brother)! It does take time, but it is worth it. I also cheat. I use e-mealz.com and love it. I don't use all of their meals, but they help us to have a plan and go with it.
*Snack. 3 meals a day doesn't work. You have to have healthy snack options that will help you get to your next meal without hunger. Come in not hungry to eat less. Below are some of the snacks that are my favorite.
mini rice cakes (caramel and cheddar cheese are my favorites)
carrot sticks (you can use ranch)
beef or turkey jerky
cottage cheese
greek yogurt
protein bars
granola bars (working on my own recipe that is allergen friendly, check back for that)
fresh fruit (but I try to do those in the afternoon only)
cheese sticks
*Track Calories. Keep track of what you eat. I am finding that I don't eat enough food some days to continue losing weight. It surprises me sometimes how little I am eating. I have to work hard to make my calories.
*Get an accountability partner or two or three or four or a dozen!! Get as many people surrounding you as you need. And use them! When they ask you how you are doing, be honest. When you are having a tough day, you need to tell your accountability partner. I send pictures of my meals to my sweet hubby, especially on days that I feel like I want to eat more. It keeps me accountable for what I am putting into my body.
*Get active. Do not park in the front parking spot. Park in the back and walk farther and don't mosey! Pretend like it is raining and you don't want to get wet. Working out is not something I considered fun before, but let me tell you what, I plug in my music (which is normally Praise and Worship music) and make my fat cry (sweat). It is beautiful to go and workout and feel each and every milestone success.
And guess what, when you mess up, just get back on track the next day and keep moving! Do I feel guilty about dessert? Nope, I ate consciously and I had plenty of calories to spare. Focus on each day and know that you can be a success. I wake each morning praising the Lord that I have another day to try to make things right. I get moving no matter if it hurts. I fight through and I do what I can to succeed. And each day, I show up. I just show up and live my life. Don't stop living and don't stop fighting :-)
February 29, 2012
Something fun to do with the kids!
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February 27, 2012
Strawberry Vinaigrette
- I had gotten lucky with some incredible strawberries on sale and the smell of them got my brain to working. I looked through my pantry and thought a nice strawberry vinaigrette would go wonderful with Tilapia we were having for dinner. I looked around and didn't find a recipe that I was totally thrilled with, so I went ahead and used several to make up my own. Hope you like it. :-)
- Ingredients:
- 1/3 cup red wine vinegar
- 2 T. honey
- 2 T. Dijon mustard
- 2/3 cup olive oil
- 1 full cup fresh strawberries
- Directions:
- All the directions I found for recipes wanted you to whisk this then add that, do this. I am all about it being easy, so I pulled out my handy dandy Ninja blender.
I put in the strawberries first then added the vinegar and all the other ingredients then pulsed until I got the consistency I was looking for.
I didn't use any special salad, just an old fashioned lettuce, tomato and cucumber salad. I am sure it would be great on a spinach salad as well. Even the kids loved this one :-)
February 25, 2012
God's Fingers
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,
what is mankind that you are mindful of them,
human beings that you care for them"? Psalm 8: 3 - 4
Today has been one of those days that I think about God's gifts and what he is able to do for each of us. I was told by my doctor that I probably have arthritis in my fingers and hands and other joints. As an almost 38 year old, I am saddened by this news but am not so surprised since the pain has put me into tears so many times in the past few weeks. I did get the greatest reminder this afternoon that it is going to be okay. I snapped this picture in front of my house just a short time ago. On the same day that the doctor told me that my use of my fingers was going to be limited by arthritis, God gave me His. He showed me that His fingers will always be reaching from Heaven to lift me up and to give me the strength that I need to move on each day no matter how bad I am hurting.
My Dearest Father, Thank you so much for the reminder that you are always here. Despite the pain in my fingers and the difficulties I might face due to that pain, I know that your fingers are here to hold me up and to do my work. You are the reason for it all, and I am so very grateful that no matter what is going on in a day, I can look to you for anything and everything. In your Son's most precious Name! Amen.
February 24, 2012
For Better or For Worse
com·mit·ment [kuh-mit-muhnt]
noun
1. the act of committing.
2. the state of being committed.
3. the act of committing, pledging, or engaging oneself.
4. a pledge or promise; obligation: We have made a commitment to pay our bills on time.
5. engagement; involvement: They have a sincere commitment to religion.
I am thinking about the meaning of the words we use in our wedding vows. For better or for worse, no matter what happens. Whether he forgets to put the cap on the toothpaste or she leaves hair in the drain. Whether he promises you something and breaks your heart when he changes his mind or she says she loves you only to never show you an ounce of affection. We make this promise with "God and these witnesses." But is it for real or is it just empty words we say because of tradition?
Commitment as defined above (courtesy of dictionary.com) is clearly a mindset - a way of thinking that will allow both you and your spouse to weed through this insane jungle that has become a "stronger" relationship. That C word (commitment if you aren't reading closely) is quite important when we face those conflicts that come with any marriage. The number one reason for divorce right now is "irreconcilable differences," but God calls us to a higher kind of love that will resolve those differences. Love is defined as a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection. but I can say that I love food... I love my children... I love reading..... I love my husband.... I love chocolate.... I love the smell of the air after the rain. These are not listed in any particular order, but you see my point here? It's a word that is used as flippantly as our vows. The level of love is so very different for each of them. Love can be friendship and companionship, natural affection, physical attraction. No matter what it is, if circumstances change, love might change.
Maybe today you look at your husband, realizing this is not the man you married. You pause and wonder what happened to that man. Is this guy living in your house anywhere close to the incredible man you once stood at the alter (or the copier- my friends will get that one) with and professed your true love "for better or for worse." Maybe he has put on some weight? Maybe he has developed a grouchy nature? Maybe he doesn't fight with you with the spirit he once had? While you are thinking of that, I want you to also think, maybe you aren't the wife he married! Are you doing everything you can to show him in a way he understands how much you love him? Are you communicating with him on a level that is suitable for him (NOT YOU)?
There are some very strong barriers in relationships that work against us building a strong commitment with our husbands. This isn't by chance, it is challenging by design. We are human and we do things that step in front of that love.
Toby Keith sings the song, "I wanna talk about me." That comes to my head right now because of the verse.
I wanna talk about me
Wanna talk about I
Wanna talk about number one
Oh my me my
What I think, what I like, what I know, what I want, what I see
I like talking about you you you you, usually, but occasionally
I wanna talk about meeeeee
I wanna talk about me
We are self-centered people. Because we are sinners we centralize our sin into self-gratification. Guess what, Princess, it's not about you!! It's about both of you (all of you if you are a family).
We all have baggage, both emotional and spiritual. Dara Maclean sings "Suitcases." which gives us a great perspective on this. Past experiences, especially those sins and habits that are unresolved, haunt relationships- marriages. We must deal with these before God. Sometimes it takes help, but we can all find that freedom we seek as long as we commit to making changes and actually LET GO!
"Busy doing nothing" ? Is this you? Do you do so much that you don't have enough meaningful time to spend together nurturing your commitment? I feel like this sometimes, but you have to push through and schedule time in, no matter what is going on.
"Love is not a fight." We don't always know the true meaning of marriage, but I can tell you that it's not fighting all the time. If you have never seen an example of a healthy marriage, it's going to be hard. But know there are others around you that want you succeed! It's not about who can yell the loudest or gets in the last word. Love is not a fight, which brings us to our last point.
Commitment includes speaking with your spouse. Not just a "Hello" when you walk in the door, but REAL communication. How you do that or fail to do that is crucial in a healthy marriage. Don't let words end what you worked so hard to build.
I'm not a professional, although my friends will say I play one at the local coffee place when they need a shoulder ;-) You know who you are and that I love you no matter what is going on. One thing from talking to those friends and others around me that is obvious... If a couple is committed to one another, then no matter what obstacles or barriers are in place, they will somehow manage to make it work. Love never fails! God is capable of bringing healing to any crisis, but you have to trust Him and let your heart trust Him. You must also be willing. Remember, our God is a God of love. He does not destroy and He doesn't fail for better or for worse.
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